Boyfriend?

Yes. A new relationship. I myself am even thinking why would I do this to myself? But for some reason I want to try it. Who knows what will happen and the only way to find out is to just close your eyes and jump. He seems sincere enough so I'm hoping it will last, the sincerity that is. But for now all I can do is just wait. I have the guidance of Scarlet so I know that I will at least be a little safe for a while. I am praying I don't get hurt.

Let Down

This hot air balloon I'm floating on
Makes it easier to bear now that everything is wrong
Just a taste of fantasy
When chaos fills reality
I'll just stay on this intangible cloud
The world below has just gotten way too loud
I can't keep up with the fast paced society
I don't quite have the mental sobriety
And when the sky gets a little dark
I'll let myself drift among the stars
I trusted you to not let me fall
But you left me here without anything at all

Too Little Too Soon

My father (my real one) is once again leaving, as he always seems to do. I know this is a great opportunity for him, but I can't help but feel disappointed now. And I cannot tell him these things because it will make me seem selfish. I just have so much in my mind now, and I want to blurt it all out, but I can't. I really could use a friend right now, but I know that won't happen. I want to tell him how angry I am with him because he wasn't part of my life, how he never helped me when my mother became too overbearing. I want to tell him to not leave because he just got here and its breaking my heart that he's leaving. But I can't say any of this, not to anyone. Because nobody will listen...