No Thank You

I really cannot continue this way. My friends are gone, it feels like I don't even have any anymore. I have a creepy secret admirer who is stalking me, and I'm afraid to even leave my house. My mother is not helping with her constant unhappiness with my imperfection. I am trying so hard with everything. I am giving my all with school, and it's paying off with my success of all A's (hopefully). I got a job to help with my finances. I'm participating in various church activities. And yet it's not enough because I don't do things with her, I spend "all" my time with Jose, and I don't hang out with my friends. It's not my fault my friends don't want to hang out with me. It's not my fault that she makes it unbearable to be around her, and it's not my fault that I want to be around someone who makes me so unbelievably happy. It's all becoming so overwhelming. I don't want it anymore. No thank you.